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i thought i broke my finger...
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yesterday, but i'm sure it would have been much more painful than it was/is... Taranis concluded that i just jammed it real good. and i tore off my nail in the process. thank all things fake that i have false nails and it just tore that off and ripped it half way down the real one!! i think it would have taken my actual nail completely if i didn't have on fakies.
had PT today... i'm doing better. my therapist exhausts me. but i love her. she has my name. we're too cool for anyone else! lol and because of my insurance i have a one on one therapist instead of a therapist that goes around checking on you while the assistant does all the work. that's right, i'm special!
doc cut my pills in half on friday. now i definatly know it was working... i have to remember to keep good posture. its hard to do on my couch. i just wanna sink in and lay all funky!
i've been too busy at work to be hatin on Homer. so no good work gossip if that's what your lookin for. Pic should be back the end of this month. Savannah and I are both mortified that Homer has NOT made any attempts to talk about this... just like when Pic left she ignored that, too and it got a bunch of shit slung!!
i am a bad mommy. we locked Kai out of the bedroom and Drake in the bedroom so we "adults" could sleep. after she cried for about 10 minutes at the door she stopped. i woke up this morning and she was sleeping under the couch. i feel bad but she wont leave Drake or Us alone long enough to get some much needed rest.
my boy is over 9 years old. i don't know why i got a kitten when i have an "old man" cat... he's been dry heaving, walking like he's all stiff and sleeeeeeeeps way much more than normal. his eyes aren't as goopy - just clear tears now but more than before he got sick... i think i'm going to take him to the vet and have them do a full panel. i am worried about my baby boy. i got him right when they said i was clear of cancer the 1st time and he's been by my side since. he's the sole survivor left of the original cats i had and my life before Chicago. i can't lose my boy.
after i got up this morning, i was walking to the shower after checking on Kai (and the hamsters to make sure she didn't retaliate by committing homicide) she wrapped her little arms around my ankle and i dragged her to shower with me. then she sat on the toilette staring at me and purrrrring so loud!! i am a really bad mommy and she still loves me. sigh.
now that my pain is just in the back and hip (its radiates into my hip, its not gonna stop because of where the bad spot is...) its time for us to start walking again... wish me luck!! the pain has made me lazy!
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| Saturday, July 11, 2009 |
| 11:52 AM |
Dinner and a Movie... make that two
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Last night Taranis and I went out to celebrate 2 years together. We went to Maggionos for dinner then we watched Transformers II and Ice Age: Dawn of the Dinosaurs. Both were awesome movies! And if you've been straddling the fence on Transformers because of the mixed reviews... just go see it! You wont be dissapointed!
July was a defining month in our relationship so we pick the middle of it to celebrate; its when he decided he wanted to move to the area and live closer to me, and its the month he asked me to be his girlfriend. August '07 he moved IN with ME and my room mates into thier house... and when I said we were going to take it slow, we did... it wasn't until November when we said "I love you"
It's not been a perfect relationship but it IS the BEST relationship I have ever been in!!
a little over a month ago he asked me to marry him.
I can't wait to walk down the aisle!!Labels: Family
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| Wednesday, July 08, 2009 |
| 6:34 PM |
sooooooooo happy its wednesday!
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monday: was a shit ass terrible day
tuesday: another shit ass terrible day but add PT in the morning
today: great!! no Homer!!! bad: i hate complicated groups!
so my baby boy's eyes are clear one minute and goopy the next. yesterday was his last day on the eye drops... if they are still goopy occasionally by this weekend we're going to give him the rest of Kai's oral anitibiotics they gave us for HER eyes. she's perfect!!
its insane they looked kinda clear this morning and this afternoon when we got home they were fine! clear as a bell and then within an hour they were runny and goopy!! its driving me insane...
we had a chance (still do if we want them, but are still passing) to score extra cheap Nascar tickets this weekend which our 2yr anniversary is the 15th... if Drake's eyes were definatly better we wouldn't be passing!!
i'm off to catch up on my over 130 unread blogs...
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| Saturday, July 04, 2009 |
| 11:45 PM |
taste pictures and video!
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follow this link to my fb photo album to see pics of us roaming the city and the sears tower(add me as a friend if we're not already)... goto the photobucket page to see fireworks pictures...
never again will i try to upload video using anything BUT this new place i found... 10 hours later i finally remembered i have photobucket and it took 10 minutes to upload and it only uploaded the 1st 5 minutes leaving me frustrated. that was it. not the whole thing, so i've been on a rampant search trying to find something to share this video with you all... a search that started when we got home from grocery shopping 8 hours ago or whenever it was and its now almost midnight...
anyways, please watch this 20 minute video of friday's fireworks since i went through "hell" to get it here for you....
with sound, just over 20 minutes using blackberry
removed the imbedded... follow this link:
http://www.videowebtown.com/geminitwinsfyre/22249/77625
(will auto play can't help that...turn volume on mute if you don't want to hear it...)
there are other videos on this site as well that is from me, vids of the kittehs and another shorter vid of the fireworks without sound taken with the digital camera.
enjoy!!Labels: Holidays, Videos
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my only wound is on my right foot, 3rd toe...
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yesterday morning came early as we got up and got ready for the taste. we knew it'd be packed and crowded and didn't want to have to fight the crowds...
our game plan: leave early, leave hungry, get in early, chow down on some grub and then explore Chicago, watch fireworks and go home.
we did all that and more
first we walked from the millennium garage where we safely parked our car near the exit to the surface (fast entry fast exit -- or so we thought) and walked to the main gate of the taste. after being told hatefully by some large black woman "its closed until 11pm you can not go in, go away" i smarted off "i'm just taking a picture lady, chill out, we weren't planning on going inside, yet" and i finished taking my picture and we walked away towards... the road that makes me think of Bilbo Baggins...
once we made a left onto that street and we came upon lake shore drive... OMIGOD that is alot of street and alot of cars! but with the help of a FRIENDLY crosswalk guard we made our way safely to the other side of LSD!
onward our journey to see the sail boats which were 50 feet infront of us now in the water and that 50 feet being water... (note: i have no idea of actual footage this is a guestimate if my numbers are wrong, keep them to yourself, thanks!!) i want a boat badly!! and this just helped enhance my hunger!!
we continued down the walkers path until we got to shedd aquarium. we WERE going in there but there was a line 50 miles long because of special holiday weekend pricing (bastards) and so we decided to pass. and the museum of something right next to it, we passed on that cuz joe's not a huge fan of museums. i got to see soldier field from a distance!! it was pretty awesome. then we strolled through grant park.
please keep in mind we arrived in chicago at like 9:00 am
so the taste doesn't open until 11 and we're still walking towards LSD. its about 15 til 10 now and we cross back over LSD to the "land" side. then we walk the block(sss) around the taste and finally end up somewhere not far from the funky looking ampitheatre to wait out our fate. here it is 10:30 am and we are exhausted. boy do we have a long day in store for us!
after what seems like 15 hours instead of 15 minutes they call for people to start lining up at the entrances and make an announcement about drinking plenty of water and how they must search all bags, etc etc. another 15 minutes that seems like 25 hours this time and the flood gates open, literally!!
the 1st thing we tried was the frozen chocolate dipped bananas. then we had garlic mozzarella bread. next came mozzarella cheese sticks. free cup of amp energy drink. then we had chocolate and caramel popcorn. next came hushpuppies. we scored some homemade potato chips. finally we had stuffed sausage then stuffed spinach pizza. and our hunger was sated for a moment.
it was beginning to get crowded (that's funny right?) and it was after noon. we'd only been IN the taste itself for roughly an hour and 20 minutes?? wow it didn't seem very long at all!
next we headed into downtown to see the architecture and just roam around. we had no idea where we were going until joe had the bright idea to see the sky deck at sears tower.
we got there after an hour of walking so its about 1:20 or so in the afternoon and there is a long line but we figure, we got time to kill til the fireworks so we'll wait. the line moved fairly rapidly. we were at the door in 15 minutes. then in the elevator in 15 minutes. once downstairs i'd say it took about 30 minutes to get from one compartment to the next and then the movie so about an hour traveling under the tower to get to the elevators. and we must have had perfect timing because the next thing you know there is a door that opens and this man says "you guys from me back i need about 50 people, we're forming another line" and guess what? in 2 minutes (1 to walk to elevator and 1 to go up in elevator) we were on the 1st skydeck. 99th floor.
omigod i was 99 floors up in the sky! people looked like ants and cars looked like matchbox toys!! you shoulda seen the taste from up there!!
then we traveled to the 103rd floor where the skyboxes are... i could only do 1 of them but joe did 2, there are 4, 1 was out of commission. the other had a family that wouldn't move...
and down we go!! it took 10 minutes of standing in line for the down elevator.
and we were beginning to be a little hungry but ignored it because it was only 3pm or so... we walked back towards LSD taking more pictures and dunked into barnes and noble to check out a comfy couch but they were all taken so we bought me "the talisman" by stephen king and peter straub (i have "the black house" already and loved it, didn't realize i was getting part 2 instead of part 1 but thankfully you don't have to read 1 in order to get 2 but some parts did leave me a little lost)
anyways, its about 3:30 now and we decide to find us some grub. we walk along the road we parked under (is that michigan?) but couldn't find any resturants we'd want to try out... and re-passed the main entrance to the taste. we were not going to go back in at first because all the crowds but when it looked like that was our only chance at putting our hunger to rest...
so we snuck in through the backside and eyed a ticket booth with no one at it (this part of the taste was dead, if you can believe that... being near the ferris wheel and all) got us some tickets and away we went!!
he scored some pork tacos and i got some orange chicken. delicious! and then we went and had icecream while we staked out a spot on the grassy knoll behind the fountain out on LSD.
it was about 4:30 once we finally crashed onto the spot we deamed ours for the night. we laid down and relaxed. my feet never thanked me enough for finally putting them up! we waited on the grass for over 4 hours. joe eventually went back and got us fudge and that was the end of our tickets.
there was a fight that broke out behind us on the otherside of the bushes. the cops couldn't keep it contained. finally they got it settled after what seemed like an hour and they walked them right in front of us! some of them, not all of them... tassers out and all. it was very unreal.
that's when they closed down LSD and people were playing in the street-ahem highway-er freeway??...
then another boy, he looked all of 14 with "gang gear" that the other ADULTS were wearing that were just escorted away, was suddenly rushed away after a loud bang and the cops swarming around us.
for the record: i have never seen that many cops come rushing at the same time. never in my life. and someone screaming he's got a gun and someone being carried away on a stretcher. i almost didn't stay for the fireworks. but it was getting dark and i'm kind of glad i did wait.
que 20 minutes of awesome fireworks
after the fireworks there were more "bangs" could have been fireworks, could have been guns, who knows. i just know that cops were around with tons of tasers and somehow we got shoved into a group of those kids wearing what the others were wearing "gang gear" that had gotten in trouble. i had never been so scared before in my life that i was going to be shot instead of the person they were aiming for and be the "wrong place at the wrong time" girl dead on the local news.
finally we got to the blazer and then we were stuck in another line. it look over an hour for them to clear the streets enough for people to be able to get out of the garages.
on our way home we almost ate the ass of the mustang we were behind in the garage. trust me, i know that mustang i almost had its liscense plate memorized... we were cruising down 290, i'm texting about the gangs on facebook then traffic stopped suddenly with squeeling tires in front of us with cars on both sides -it was an accident. joe slammed on the brakes which woke my ass up (i was drifting to sleep while texting) and i knew we didn't have enough time to stop so i'm holding the door screaming "oh god oh god oh god oh god" and he swerved to the right and barely missed the mustang infront of us and the car next to us by mere inches. my life was flashing. i almost didn't have to use the bathroom anymore. if he would have hesitated just a second on what he was going to do, i would have been the fleshy middle of a car pile up. i think the SUV behind us might have crashed into the mustang...
i havn't been brave enough to look on the news about last night's gang stuff and then the 290 stuff... i think in this instance, ignorance might be better than knowing. and i'll be happy i wasn't shot, mugged or raped and in the end of the night i didn't die in a horrific car accident.
i'll also be happy that after walking from 9am to 4:30 pm the only wound i have is a blister on my right foot, 3rd toe...
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| Thursday, July 02, 2009 |
| 7:48 PM |
fun filled july!!
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i remember last year when July rolled around. I was so sad and heartbroken that the only fireworkds i'd be seeing is the ones set off by my work because of the schedule i had then.
but not this year ladies and gents. we are going to the taste of chicago tomorrow!! and we pre purchased our tickets so we don't have to stand in line :) --yes, we are smart
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at the end of the month we have a most expenses paid trip to indiana.
so like, dudes, July is going to be SO fucking awesome!!!
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| Tuesday, June 30, 2009 |
| 10:53 PM |
Drake says thank you!
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to everyone for the warm wishes and so do we! thank you all for your kind concern over him and myself...
i am going to be looking for another job, so if any of you chicago people have any prospects you might know of to share in the western suburb area that'd be cool...
basically i am not happy in my position with Homer and we all know that. the more Savannah "defends" me and appreciates me and all I do the more Homer does her best to stab me in the back and she got her way today... I got wrote up over questioning her telling me to change my voicemail... Yes, you heard me i got wrote up for that. and the fact that it feels like Monte is taking sides, I can't have the head honcho taking the side of Homer and keep my sanity. the more Savannah praises me the more Homer says something to hurt my feelings or goes running to Monte that i am insubordinant when i don't tell her NO, i say i don't understand WHY and i don't completely agree...
i came home from work and havn't really stopped crying. i love my job and the people i work with minus Homer. I use to like Monte.
i kick ass and i do all the things i do which i couldn't even fathom to comprehend to people who don't know my job... and i am never acknowledged for anything by anyone except Savannah. not ONCE since Pic has left have i heard Homer tell me "great job in keeping the billing going smoothly, Blaez! It's a great accomplishment to have 5 major events back to back and stay on top of it!! as well as the little ones in between..."
and so for that, i say kiss my ass. job search started tonight. already submitted resumes to some prospects. i hope to catch a bite and make the transition to a new company in little time. the less time at accgtcmd the better.Labels: What Idiots, Work Life
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| Monday, June 29, 2009 |
| 10:18 PM |
what happens when a monday is truly "monday"
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6:00 am alarm going off... i've FINALLY found a position i am comfortable in and can sleep soundly... snooze snooze snooze.... 45 minutes later! shit!! GO GET IN THE SHOWER...
rush to work BARELY make it with a moment to spare and drop my purse before i head off to do liquor inventory (its not as fun as it sounds, would be funner if we could drink it) to count literaly THOUSANDS of bottles of booze in all its glorious different varies from oversized industrial to small minis... kill me now, the a/c was out!! and the concrete is hard :(
finally 3 1/2 hours later i am able to do MY work. and in just the nick of time i am caught up! yeap. that fast. how did i do it when i was so far behind because of that manager quitting and leaving me 10 open invoices? i don't know but I did. and let me tell you, its not my fault she didn't approve them or correct them if there were things that should have been done. She didn't communicate to us at all on anything when she left.
i left myself a nice present for in the morning: a multi-million dollar invoice. the only thing i was able to print off was the guest rooms and that took an hour itself. (average invoice 5 minutes) i am NOT looking forward to sorting through the billing on that S.O.B. nope, not at all...going to be an all day affair and on top of the fact that I have FOOD inventory tomorrow that'll kill me standing in the freezer on cold concrete...
but why should i complain, i have a job right? slap me before i slap myself...
finally i get off work and go to pick up Joe. call my daddy on the way. he's going to pay for our trip to Indiana for MomI's sisters' gold anniversary/family reunion. hotel and gas. WOOT! less thing i have to worry about!
then i call the TV people. at first she says she has a last minute cancel at 5:30 and she'll call me right back (for today) and then she calls me back 15 minutes later "no, we can do it tomorrow at 6pm"... still no tv...
we get home and try to relax when Drake jumps on my lap. His eye is swelled shut and he's acting like he's in pain. So I call the Golf Rose Animal Hospital where we went earlier this month when Kai and him were both sick... they wouldn't help me. REFUSED to help!! I was so pissed off. he is THIER patient and they told me "if you don't like our policies you can go elsewhere"... there policy being they are going to charge me $100 visit fee AGAIN to bring him BACK in AGAIN for a sickness they already TOLD me to use his Eye ointment for 2 weeks... 2 weeks and its not better and your going to tell ME that i have to pay you $100 more dollars on top of the $500 this month you've gotten out of me? I was livid and pissed off. They said "oh, we're sure he's fine and your over reacting, cats get teary eyed alot"... wtf? seriously???
so we went to another vet 45 minutes away, one that would accept a CC over the phone from FMIL. Drake has an ulcer in his eye and had it gone untreated or treated improperly like it was he could have gone and still could go blind in that eye if it doesn't clear up. it will spread and take over his eye. so we have different drops and if he doesn't clear up in 3-4 days we have an ocular (eye) specialist for cats (this will get expensive fast) to take him to for treatments...
my epidural: i am doing amazingly well! rarely am i getting shooting down into my leg and my back is just achy, its not horrible like before so on a scale of 0-10 i rate it between 0-3 which is much better than the 7-10+++ i was when i went in! yay for epidurals altho i refused to have them at first....Labels: Becomming a Healther Me, Family, What Idiots, Work Life
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| Sunday, June 28, 2009 |
| 11:14 AM |
my life without tv
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friday night the tv went out on us. and so all of friday night was spent trying to do things that would keep me entertained: aka I caught up on my blog reading. and i napped alot b/c of the epidural.
saturday morning i woke up sleepy and didn't want to get out and about but did anyways, we went grocery shopping! yay. and i was feeling zero pain in my back and in my leg... well, pain level was between 0 and 3 depending. getting up/down out of the car caused a twinge or two...
i slept most of the day on the couch until it was time for our oil change in the blazer. then we walked around the strip mall and 90% of the businesses had went out of business. it was very sad to see it. the parking lot was desolate and empty. the only places surviving were radio shack, indoor mini golf, a hair boutique, blockbuster, baskin robbins, dominiques and subway. between each of these were 4 empty facefronts. very sad indeed. even the cash advance place had gone out of business!!
we got some icecream (very end of the mall) and walked back to the blazer being done. the rest of the day was spent pacing around not able to think or see clearly i was sooo bored... i took another nap (lol) and when i woke up i decided to make a mini blankie for Kai out of scrap yarn i have lying around. then we ate dinner and i continued on the crocheting. somewhere in there we moved the radio out of the spare bedroom and put it into the living room so we've been listening to the radio constantly.
and today is the same thing. laundry, listening to the radio and crocheting. its only 11:23 am and I can't believe this!! i've been awake for hours (8am) and i'm gonna go take a nap most likely... i am sooo sleepy.
we can't schedule an appointment for service until monday because they are not open on the weekends for service and if i want it free or a free replacement tv i have to go where i'm buying it...
oh! and if you've made it this far down we are going to the taste of chicago on the 3rd, we plan on leaving early in the morning and getting there before it opens up. so if any chicago bloggers are going that day too lets meet up for a few :)
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| Saturday, June 27, 2009 |
| 8:18 AM |
no surprise
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that my relationship with my employer and with the state of illinois itself is close to being at an end. if i lose my job, we will move said Taranis. I just want to know how we'd keep paying our monthly payments on the furniture with no jobs... i'm not giving it back...
i have had it with this state. i have had it with the people. and i have had it with my employer --ok to be fair not really them just the bullshit that's going on in my department...
i want to know how i could have sat there and been the good one trying to be curteous and trying to be polite when SHE has blatantly been rude and ugly to me!
example:
Wednesday we had someone leave the company after putting in 2 weeks notice. While Homer and others (not from our department) were out sending her a fairwell party we got a phone call from one of the supervisors that a bride was there to drop off money... well, everyone in the other departments that would know the bride was at the party because it was one of them that was leaving...
Savannah said "bring it over here we'll take care of it..." so the supervisor brings the bride and her mom over and i print out all the information they have so far on what they want and how much deposits they've met so far. this is thier final balance so they will paying all of it right now... we go through the numbers and they are just so happy that they are just the most wonderful people. and i went through our policies on overages with them just to make sure and she said no problem they'll most likely have overages when they extend the bar. she's already expecting to!! AWESOME! :)
so i take her money and give her everything i printed out for her records and told her i'd email her a receipt with the final invoice and she said that was wondferful.
i then go to my computer and send out an email to the wedding coordinator, Homer (who has been hounding wc for money from this bride) and i copied our executive admin assistant who processes all checks to let them know its in and to expect it... i also copy Savannah on it because she's the one who sent them to me and i wanted her to know it was done...
Homer gets back an hour or so ish later and since then Savannah has forwarded my message to Monte saying "i wanted you to be aware of this, Blaez was very professional and handled the bride and MOB very well! i wanted you to know an example of what i was talking about when i said i believe she'll go far if just given the opportunities for success" she also forwarded this to Homer, big mistake... ontop of everyone in the office exclaiming how wonderful and professional i was...
Homer analyzed my email for hours it seemed she read it and read it and tried to pick on me about it i mean the stupidest things she was getting on to me about... likie reviewing the polices of the overages with me... what?! are you kidding me??
and thursday the same thing!! i was in inventory hell all day long doing 2 inventories (where she did NONE) and i was in severe pain so she took it upon herself to take invoices off my desk i wasn't finished with and tried to do them herself and came up to me saying "you missed this and this and this".... HELLO! i wasn't done with them yet!! they were "sitting" on my desk instead of in the wirerack... that means something and you know it!
then at the very end of the day where i was rushing to get out i left my standard VM greeting "thank you for calling the PLACEIWORK acctgcmd. you have reached the desk of Blaez. i appologize but i will be out of the office until Monday June 29th. Please leave a detailed message and i'll return your call. If you need immediate assistance please dial "0" and the operator will assist in finding someone to help you. Thank you and have a great Weekend!!"
in lighting flash speeds i've never seen anyone move before Homer is at my desk saying "change it. change it to have them say it to go to me, change it right now". i asked her why. i said "my standard has never been an issue" and she said "it is now, change it right now. right now."
oh my god.
i tried to reason with her that its just 1 day. 99% of the time people don't call on the weekends they expect us to be out. and if they did call on the weekend this time don't you think they'll be a little upset because they were told to call you and YOU are not in??
reluctantly i changed it, she pulled rank "i am supose to be your supervisor you will change it to what i want..." and so the 10 minutes i sat there trying to reason with her were for nothing...
Monte nor Savannah said a word at the time but I have reason to think some shit's going down on Monday. And even if it means losing my insurance I guess I might just walk out... i'd rather deal with pain intead of having a relationship with someone who hates me.
is it my fault that i am better at my job than she ever could be? no
is it my fault that people in general love me and that includes Savannah? no
is it my fault that i have caught things they were doing that is wrong and Savannah is now making them do it right? no
is it my fault she hasn't grown with technology and stuck in the stone ages? no
what did she think? she'd hire this young bright and experienced person to do my job and i'd worship her skirttails and never think beyond what i was told??
i am sorry but once i learned my job and understood what i was doing (and honestly even before then, on the 1st day i was finding a more effecient and better way) i saw all kinds of mistakes and bad things.... if it was just me and Savannah going through the policies and procedures in my sub-department of acctgcmd i know we'd find alot more and our division would get a major overhaul.
i am SICK of being put down for my smartness and my abilities. i go above and beyond and i am never recognized for it... so sick of it.
the only person who acknowledges my successes is Savannah. and i'm gonna miss her when me and acctcmd is no more, but atleast we would have the chance to be friends at that point since i wouldn't be with the company anymore.
I’ve practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I’ve got it all down
And as I say it louder I love how it sounds
Cause I’m not taking the easy way out
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn’t have to give a reason why…
It’s no surprise I won’t be here tomorrow
I can’t believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we’ll find this was no surprise
It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn’t know how
Held onto it forever just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn’t have to give a reason why
It’s no surprise I won’t be here tomorrow
I can’t believe that I stayed till today
There’s nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There’s nothing here in this soul left to say
Don’t be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God know we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we’ll find this was no surprise
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that’s left your eyes
That’s why this comes as no, as no surprise
If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it’s better than where we are now
But after going through this, it’s easier to see the reason why
It’s no surprise I won’t be here tomorrow
I can’t believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
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Our favorite place we used to go
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| Friday, June 26, 2009 |
| 7:08 PM |
what do you do when your tv breaks?
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yes, the huge widescreen 40 something inch HD bastard that weighs in a ton... that i'm still making payments on...
well, i guess i'm thankful its not paid for and its under warranty.
sound? scratchy. picture? white people were florescent yellow and now they are dark burnt sienna orange and everything else i black...
as if this day couldn't get any better!!
i got my epidural today and i get a phone call about work related stuff that i just look forward to with all of my being on monday.
can you feel the sarcasm yet?
repeat it with me...
i hate people i hate people i hate people i hate one certain person who is trying to ruin my life i hate people i hate people i hate people...
if it wasn't for insurance i'd have quit by now...
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| Thursday, June 25, 2009 |
| 7:54 PM |
gonna make this short and sweet...
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i havn't been talkative lately because all the stuff i want to talk about is stuff i can't talk about. and its been heavy and has nothing to do directly with me and my man it has more to do with other people... and might have something to do with work...
that being said.
i am going to go watch a tv show memoralizing Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett who i can't believe both of them died today. i am truly saddened.
tomorrow i have another epidural and i'll catch up on blogs and write more over the weekend... please forgive me!!
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| Sunday, June 21, 2009 |
| 8:02 PM |
Poor Kai-Kai
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She was supose to get her 1st series of vaccines today along with the routine kitteh tests... but the vaccine vet wouldn't let her have them today and took her blood instead to test for Feline Lukemia and Feline Aids (aka FIV). So she is on amoxycillyn for a respitory infection. An infection that the emergency vet said would go away because it is viral.
I am not a very happy kitty mommy right now.
we back on the 6th of July to get her and Drake thier vaccinations then. she better finally be over this sickness by then.
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| Saturday, June 20, 2009 |
| 1:39 PM |
all i needed was a P.T. who knew what she was doing!!
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(realize I might be repeating myself, but I have new readers...I'm sorry to the ones who've read this before...)
when i first hurt myself many moons ago the early spring of 2000 while working with the hospital i first injured my back. they told me it was a simple muscle tear/sprain...
(fyi... current doc says most likely it was a small herniation of L4/L5 even THEN and since they didn't do an MRI or an exray we'll never know...)
I had physical therapy for a month and it consisted of me lying on my side/stomach on my right side while the PT massaged me with a sonic massager. Before and after we'd do little stretches bit by bit until I was aaaallll better. I love'd my PT. He was a handsome older therapist!! very Strong but also Gentle! and very very nice!!
In November of 05 I did a major herniation at the L4/L5 level on thanksgiving morning. Spent many hours in the hospital on morphine, needed so much help to just breathe, it was serious pain!! I was on some opiates (sp?) and other drugs that are related to cocaine, etc... but hey, it helped!!
I went to physical therapy everyday for a month, then everyother day for a month and then 2x a week and then finally once a week... a total of 4 months or so-ish. THAT therapist was a harsh but gentle lady my (then) age who did daddy's PT when he had knee surgery. She would start me with heat and traction then we'd do small stretches and we'd put that herniated beast back into its place!! it took 4 months but damnit we were going to do it! and they were talking about removing part of the disc at that point and I wasn't gonna have it!!
i was mostly pain free until a year ago. granted I had my moments in pain but nothing severe enough to warrant going to a doc... I have no idea what i did to agrivate it but we do know that I have another disc that is trying to herniate/has a small herniation, but its not what's causing my issue. my issues is still that L4/L5 on the left side from thanksgiving 2005.
this is normal: disc) lspine
this is abnormal: disc>1spine
you get it? its bulging INTO the spinal column. I have alot of shooting pain and numbness in my legs. I lurch when I walk sometimes... I have less sensation in the left legg than i do the right.
back to my story:
so we all know that tummy is bad for me and i have lots of pain when lying on my tummy. and we know that last year when I tried to go to PT I went 3x, the eval girl was great but the therapist was a bitch. she'd say "bend over until it hurts" all the time! ok now hold it... what?! its not letting up, if it'd let up i'd understand... anyways, i'd always leave in more pain and never got anywhere... seemed like to me she didn't believe that I was in pain.
which leads me to today's therapy session. we did the range of motion test. and we talked about lying on my stomach. she said "when you have the epi they put you on your tummy... i know it hurts but we can try it a minute and i'll start massaging as soon as your on your tummy........ if you can't handle this, we stop. but I honestly think that this is going to help you or else I'd never suggest it."
omigod
that was what i needed!! i started to finally not feel the leg pain anymore. it was down to 2 when i went in at a 7. at first my back increased to 10++ but once she started massaging it down and using the warming gell I was down to 4 and then we did electro pulses afterwards.
now, it wasn't a cure-all. when I stood up of course and started moving around again I had the back pain and the pain into my leg is still easing up. we walked around Jewel and by the time we were done grocery shopping I felt very very minimal leg pain!! I am so absolutely thrilled! I couldnt be happier!
I just hope that the PT I see for now on will be as wonderful as this girl! She better be, we have the exact same name!!! First Middle and Last! How insane is that?! Only in chicago I tell you!!
I go back on Thursday and then Friday is my other epidural. PLEASE gods let this work, I don't want a spinal fusion!!!Labels: Becomming a Healther Me
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| Friday, June 19, 2009 |
| 8:56 PM |
guess what i did...
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Savannah is a friend on Facebook now... will she find this blog? i have no idea.
if she does, so be it. I don't trash talk her, just Homer. i love savannah so i'd never trash talk her anyways.
which, the past month has been a tribute to Homer being HOMER! omigod I want to go into details so bad but I keeping my tongue tightly sealed. wait, that's my lips.
haha
anyways...
i'm getting frustrated, i can't send or receive shortcodes. i can't get twitter to notify me of new tweets. i can't get facebook to notify me of new activity on my wall and i can't get myspace to update me either on new activity.
what is the point of me having the bb if its not all done for me?! WHY should "I" have to go and LOOK for it? it should be done for ME automatically.
ps, the reason its such a huge deal for me to have Savannah as a friend on facebook is becaus I said i'd never befriend a coworker... and that flew out the window along with never friending a family member! lolLabels: What Idiots, Work Life
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| Wednesday, June 17, 2009 |
| 7:26 PM |
i got me some Packer swag!
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oh look at me so hip i'm using slang!
while i couldn't find any in my size for my honey Bret Favre i did find a Donald Driver jersey. I also got an awesome hat with big green G and a few other Ts. I am SO packered out right now!!
Plus I scored GUITAR HERO jamma bottoms!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I also got BOGO'd again at Payless. This makes 2x BOGO has saved my life!! I got 2 pairs of healed "dressy" open toed shoes for the price of UNO! ONE! And just like before it was the SAME freakin SHOE in black and brown, SCORE! because i LOVE'd it so much!!! OMIGOD. I love a good buy!!!
I tried to find another pair of the pants I bought that I <3 beyond <3ing pants but since I buy clearance and clearance mostly guess what, 2 other stores now and can't find the stupid pants in my size anymore!! grrrrrrr
so dude what does all this mean? it means I got over $150 dollars worth of swag for under $50.
Yeap.
I know it.
I rule.
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| Tuesday, June 16, 2009 |
| 7:10 PM |
Today Is My Birthday
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Happy Birthday to me!!
what did I do today??
I got up way too early, went to the doc for my "prevent the female cancer from coming back" routine as always on this day. They drew 5 vials of blood out of me. OUCH OUCH OUCH. there goes another vein!! lol, just kidding! my veins have been shot for years now. I use to have to have blood drawn every month. Thank the gods no more!
I have to wait a few weeks for my results as always.
My uterus still looks good per the ultrasound. And I can't get off my meds. Can you see my pouty face?? She was all set to start the "lets make a baby" game but since my back is bothering me still she agrees we should deal with the back pain first and have babies later.
They also did a PCOS test... While there is no "cure" for PCOS they can give me treatments that help with alot of things that are wrong with me. This includes infertility and weightloss. While we know that some of my infertility is due to the cancer history, it doesn't explain why i couldn't get preggers BEFORE the cancer...
She also checked my thyroid too.
I have alot of things i'm waiting for the results...
on to the good stuff!! yesterday with money from BioMom and Joe I got 2 pairs of pants and 2 new shirts. Today I got 3 shirts and a new skirt, this was money from Work for my bday (our office takes up a pool of $10 ea and it goes on a giftcard w/ cake on the side *yummy strawberry shortcake!*) i have almost $60 of birthday money left (FMIL gave me $$ too), I want to try and get atleast 1 or 2 more pairs of pants and try to find LOW/flats that are open toed. My "higher"/medium healed shoes are not comfortable but they are all I have right now... They didn't use to be a problem!!
How I can I buy so much on so little? Its called I never buy it unless its on sale. Period. I'm a cheepcheep.Labels: Becomming a Healther Me, I Am a Survivor, Let's Have a Baby
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| Sunday, June 14, 2009 |
| 2:47 PM |
goals updates...
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in this post i expressed some goals i wanted to meet for 2009 and thought i'd share an update on them... thank you to Lisa Chelle @ Fat & Fabulous for reminding of this post!!
*get off the medications I'm off the narcotics and won't know if I can get off the other medical issue pills until Tuesday when I go see my other doc. And even though I am off the narcs I am on Celebrex now...
*become healthier and more fit the man i started walked everyday (or atleast we tried to) and sometimes my pain was too much and i'd give in and let him take me home... my new doc says i must never give in and still walk. we'll see how that goes.
*get the medical bills paid off
i don't think i'll ever get these paid off if i keep having to have procedures and injections and possibly a spinal fusion...
*either be pregnant or have given birth by 2010
the man and i have decided to hold off on the baby making while my body is full of toxins and medications that make for an unhealthy environment. and we have also considered waiting until after we move to florida...
*buy a new vehicle by next winter (and try to keep the blazer, too) with major surgery coming up and all the medical bills sometimes it can be hard to even concieve of buying a new car... so maybe the blazer will stay a good girl and keep running for us!!
*have more money in the savings account considering i wiped it out paying vet bills for the new kitteh and Drake that was a huge fail... but was succeeding until then...
*be even more valuable to the company I work for according to Savannah I'm very valuable and according to Homer I'm not.. that i'm expendable. we'll see... I like Savannah more anyways...
*visit each family atleast once we went to florida and arkansas and spent time with both families plus i went to my Raquel's graduation so I would say we've achieved this... however visiting for the holidays will not be something we can do this year.
*post more to my blog
sometimes i feel like i post too much... what do ya'll think?
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if i told you i didn't want to talk about it would you forgive me?
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i'm really sad and really dissapointed right now... i'm starting to calm down and talking about it would just rile me up again...
but know this: i have removed people out of my address book, off facebook and off mysapce like i promised i'd do if they fucked up again... which lying to me would be fucking up in my book.
i hate chicago
i hate the people here (present company exluded aka the bloggers and TitanSaturnae + his wife)
and i hate myself for putting myself in that position once again
will i never learn?
i made joe promise me he'd never let me do it again...
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| Saturday, June 13, 2009 |
| 2:13 PM |
the one in which Drake saves Lo-Jack
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before i get into my story I want to appologize for the lack of commenting on your blogs... while i do read them through google reader, i've been doing it on my new blackberry and i havn't gotten quite the hang of it yet... i do promise tho I will make sure to start "staring" (if i learn how) and go later onto my desktop or laptop to comment... but know i love you all!!
Last night Chekov came over for the weekend and we were hanging out playing rockband and guitar hero while making jello "shots" and mixed drinks for today... and drinking some too!!
Well, we let the hamsters out in thier balls. Lo-Jack has a brocken dome where he hides and to take the top off is the only way to get him out... and he's pretty good at not getting out unless he take him out. He HATES to get out...
This morning we get up to start getting ready for the party and guess who got out of thier broken dome... Lo-Jack... he pushed it open like we do when we get him out!
We searched high, we looked low and couldn't find him!! so we broke out some celery and placed it in the living room infront of the tv... Joe told Drake "find lo-jack, drake... go find him!!"
a few hours later I come out of the bedroom and sure enough there is drake staring down the front of the tv... Lo-Jack was hiding UNDER the tv... We have a huge big widescreen monster of a tv and there is a spot in the back where sure enough, even though we moved the tv out from the wall we never noticed there is a spot under the tv. a little cave type thing and that's where he was!!
From what we can tell is that he fell or jumped out of the broken dome after pushing the lid up and then went to the cat food and got some of it and some of his and Nilla's food that falls out from thier cages that's between the cages and the wall and stashed it and hid under the tv. when we put out the celery he came out for a nibble, drake went after him and since drake isn't small enough to get in the cave under the tv he sat there until one of us (ME) noticed what was going on.
So Drake saved the day and helped us find Lo-Jack. Yay for Drake Drake being smart kittie!!!
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| Tuesday, June 09, 2009 |
| 7:36 PM |
Kai made Mommy cry...
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we all know kittens are curious and want to be in everything. she's sooo curious that sometimes it can be a bit scary.
like tonight...
when i opened the oven door and my hands were in the oven to the point where if i would have moved suddenly i'd have burned myself seriously... she ..... oh god she almost jumped into the oven. 450 degree oven and that kitten almost jumped into it.
going to have to make sure Joe is holding her the next time i have to do anything with the oven.
you can tell when they are going to pounce, they hunch up thier little hineys and start shaking it... i said "no kai! no! kai no!!" and instead of jumping she stood on her hind legs and tried to climb in!! Joe came running in.
i can't get these two scenes out of my head: me jerking instead of 'staying calm' and burning my arms and hands or her not listening and jumping/Joe not coming in and her climbing onto the oven door.
talk about a bad spot to be in!! when your doubled over and reaching for a heavy casserole dish... FUCK!
she also tries to climb into the dishwasher...
i was in tears holding her "kai baby don't do that again! you scared me"
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| Monday, June 08, 2009 |
| 8:54 PM |
omigod! i can't believe i bought this!!!
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i just purchased my blackberry curve...
you see i thought i was gonna get one a few months ago and then had to buy tickets to see my sister graduate college and THEN my laptop went out... which, btw, she's working some of the time now... the laptop that is, not my sister! altho my sister does work........
ooooooooookay, anyways we just bought me my blackberry curve... i am nervous and scared at the same time about this new toy of mine... mainly the no music ringtones part!! but i guess i can survive that...
so, any advice anyone can give me on my new baby before it gets here in a few days??
(yes, i bought it online so i didn't have to upfront the money today but in a month when my bill is due, lol -- i want my man to be able to buy me other things for my birthday, i'll pay for the blackberry later!)
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| Friday, June 05, 2009 |
| 12:14 AM |
a visit to the vet..
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long story short but new kitteh Kai is sick. and now Drake is sick. so we were at the vet all night... and people cryin because of thier animals dying around us and here we are there for eye and respiratory infections...
stupid lady said she worked for a vet and that Kai was fine!! sigh... there goes my money... or i should say Joe's money since he paid for it all with the money he was going to use saturday on a day long and overnight date.
g'nite ya'll. i gotta sleep.
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| Wednesday, June 03, 2009 |
| 9:21 PM |
hormonal raging beast coming at ya!
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the morning started off rocky... at 5am Kai-Kai decided to wake up her new mommy and play. Kai-Kai did not get the hint that Mommy doesn't get up a 5am... but she was so cute! and tangled in my hair...
then i get to work and my glasses break. yeap, just fall right off my face and broke on the nose rest piece. they are broke in half. i was already trying to budget in kitty vacinations but now i have to budget in either a: new glasses or b: just renew my contacts or c: both. ugh.
Sears optical is the cheapest so far with buy 2 pair for $99 for both (1 sunglass and one regular glasses) and the exam is about $55. With my contacts its $100 exam plus $30 a box which holds 6 pairs = about 6 months to a year, i don't dispose of them like they tell you to. because i don't always want to wear my contacts. so in essense their 2 weeks is really a month to 2 months for me... depending on "how many times" i wear them...
then when i got off work i approached a red light and there was 5 cars in front of me in the turn lane... light turns green and no cars are moving... i went up 1 space. i fuckin blared my horn!! oh i was hot! THEN the other green turn it was red as i got to the white line. people need to learn to pay attention to the damn light and quit sitting there texting on the fucking cellphones.
when we got home i made din din and all was well and we played with kittehs and Joe had the awesome idea to go get a free rootbeer float from sonic tonight... they had 4 lanes: 2 food and 2 free floats. we waited and it wasn't a long wait but in the process of getting there we were nearly ran into 3x by people cutting infront of us. AND THEN right when we stopped in the "receiving" section they just finished serving the line next to us. then they left. and then a new line next to us formed. and then they left..... finally i said "you know, i know its free but why do you keep giving them floats on that side and not us?" --the manager told the girl "go side to side not front to back" ...seriously how much of an idiot could she be??
then we stopped and got a self waterer for the kittehs and got Kai-Kai a perdi pink collar with a bell. she loves it! and on the way home there was this asshole SUV that kept revving up on our ass and the person in the next lane going back n forth. we were going the speed limit and its not like we can go faster than the car in front of us. and then when the car in front of them turn and we had to put on our brakes i just knew Mr. Rev My Engine was going to run into the ass of my blazer. I woulda killed that mother fucker. and so he went into the lane next to us right when it was a red light and still couldn't go faster than the limit and was reving his engine behind us "good drivers" until we turned off onto our road.
i called 10 vet offices today. and did alot of researching online. PetCo has a traveling vet clinic that's 1st come 1st serve and the one closest to our house is this sunday and the 21st. we're going the 21st to get her started and to get Drake's yearly. the PetCo clinic is also the cheapest by 1/3 of the pricing I was getting from the Vet offices local... I went back through my paperwork from my Vet in arkansas and he was never that expensive...
I need to go catch up on blog reading...
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| Sunday, May 31, 2009 |
| 5:48 PM |
my birthday is coming up soon...
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and we're going to have a small little gathering at our place...
the last "party" we tried to have last year for my birthday was a total bomb... well, not a total Bomb.. KRM showed up :) and that was awesome!!!
last year i gave out lots of invites (we had tons of parking available) and 1/4th of the people that RVSP'd actually showed up. Out of those 8 people the only person who's company we really enjoyed was KRMs. Others just wanted to get loud and obnoxious and drunk........ NOT TO MENTION that they were HOURS late!! Yes, HOURS as in 4 hours we were wrapping things up!!! We spent $200 on food and stuff for the party. We had expected about 20 People.
This year, I'm gonna try again... I have limited parking, we have 1 spot and the rest is street parking. Minus the garage, so we have 2 really...
KRM will be invited ofcourse and I'm gonna see if Candid Beauty and her man want to come over... Most likely will not invite anyone else over. But we'll see... They'll miss out on alot of Rock Band, Guitar Hero and good food if they don't!! my bday weekend is in 2 weeks.
Next weekend me and the man are going to a surprise place (its a surprise to me) and spend the night in a hotel and go hiking! YAY for my back feeling better :)
**update** i just sent out my invite.. and i invited new peoples and a few from last years'... we'll see if they show up this year, if not, its never again and i'm deleting them off FB and my email!
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