i'm a negative person???

i never really thought of myself as a negative person. that i had some negative/bad things in my life...but never that i was a negative person and i've looked back the past few years on this damn blog and you know what? it is negative.

instead of talking about the boys and what they were doing i was dwelling on the fact that we had no money when i should have been rejoicing the fact i was given the chance to have 2 wonderful children in my life instead i was complaining that i couldn't have my own children biologically.

i don't want to be told i'm negative again. i will do my very best to try to be more positive on this thing and in my life.

and you know something else i havn't done? i have yet to acknowledge the new year. HAPPY FUCKING NEWYEAR! its going to be the best year i've had in a long time.

for what its worth, i'm happy. i am happy that i'm with Taranis. we mesh well and compliment eachother. he understands me and doesn't get upset when i think differently about stuff. we're in love.

I woke up this morning to the alarm going off. he hit snooze then snuggled against me in bed and put his head on my back and just held me tight.

"See You Again"

I got my sights set on you and I'm ready to aim
I have a heart that will never be tamed
I knew you were something special
When you spoke my name
Now I can't wait to see you again

I've got a way of knowing when something is right
I feel like I must have known you in another life
Cause I felt this deep connection when you looked in my eyes
Now I can't wait to see you again

[Chorus:]
The last time I freaked out
I just kept looking down
I st-st-stuttered when you asked me what I'm thinking about
Felt like I couldn't breath
You asked what's wrong with me
My best friend Lesley said "Oh she's just being Miley"
The next time we hang out
I will redeem myself
My heart it can't rest till then
I can't wait to see you again

[Chorus]

I got this crazy feeling, deep inside
When you called and asked to see me tomorrow night
I'm not a mind reader but I'm reading the signs
That you can't wait to see me again

[Chorus]

--Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus