had a long conversation with the ex's wife

So I've gotten a first hand look at how people can change. And I ask. Is it them changing or you changing? I was asked a question and I'm looking at myself and I wonder. I wonder so much. ...... I explained to her how Hephaestus was with me and she says he is a totally different person than he use to be. Issues that I had such a hard time with him over she's completely pretty much eliminated. And I can't believe it. She says he nolonger feels anger towards me (the reason for his anger to begin with I still haven't been able to figure out) and now it's just indifference. She reads my blog and has tried to keep him updated on my health situation, keeping him informed that I'm still in remission and doing well and he just shrugs it off and doens't care. I can't imagine how he could *not* care. How could he not care about me like that? If he was hurt or injured I'd care. And we had so many scares together. It's unreal.

He says he never cheated on me. That's what he told her. He told her he had a few indecent relationships but he never cheated. She confessed to him that she cheated on her ex, hell she cheated on her ex with him! So she doesn't understand why he would hide that from her. I told her maybe he's learned from the past and doesn't want that ugliness hanging around. He doesn't want her to be suspicious of him. Here I am trying to comfort my exhusband's wife and help make her feel better. That's just freakin weird dude.

Ok so we had like a 45 minute conversation today on my way home from work and we emailed back n forth most of the day. I can't believe I'm having conversation's with my ex's wife... And behind his back. If he knew, we'd both be dead. His temper is nothing to be pushed and she agrees with me on that one.

I'm glad they are happy. Mars (H's bro) and his wife got a divorce. I found out that H & her had a one nighter, I'm sure that probly led to it. I think she got full custody of the boys... I'm not sure how that happened but I'm sure in due time I will find out.

Wow, I can't believe I had the talks today with my ex's wife that I did.... this is like surreal man.