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as you can tell im not at band practice. this whole weekend was cancelled again. i'm gonna have to make myself start singing and rehearsing in my spare time tho. i think i can get a nice acoustic from my friend's store for about $125 according to his bro. give or take a few. i should beable to afford that. then we have lessons i have to schedule, learning books to buy. but i want to do this. i want to learn to play (again) and i say again sparingly because really i was only learning for about 4 months and i dont think any of it stuck.

but, the expenses of buying a new guitar, getting the learning books, signing up for lessons, etc is all worth it, will be worth it in the end. when i can contribute more and piece music together for my lyrics better.

been catching up with a few "old friends". one of wich we ended on bad terms, the other we both just kinda got busy with our lives and lost touch. it was nice, i hope to not piss the one off or lose touch with the other again.

work was pretty dull tonight. im sure that means it'll be hell tomorrow. i havn't gotten much sleep the past few nights, i've not wanted to sleep. i think i did something altho i'm not sure what the something is that i did to my back again. i gotta start remembering to take that fucking ibuprophen like i'm suppose to. i know why its hurting. because i havn't been taking the ibuprophen so now its all starting to get inflamed and irritated where those 2 herniated disks are. if I'm not careful i'll end up with my ass in traction again for 4 months doped up on vicoden, oxycontins and muscle relaxers again. ---not such a bad deal except for the not working and no income aspect of it. the drugs are good tho! i loved being on oxycontin until i came off it and the withdrawls were killer.

i have a few vicoden from my surgery a few months back and darvocet from where they ripped out that damn wisdom tooth last month. i need to figure a way to remember to take the ibuprophen again tho. 4 pills 3times a day. can't be that damn hard to remember. Waking - mid day - bed time. i can do this. if me and suga were living together again she say "jenny? did u take your drugs this morning?" and shed hound me about it. gotta love that about her. man i miss her so much. we use to have helluva good time raising hell together.

ok i'm going to bed. im' gonna dope myself up and sleep til i have to shower and leave for work.

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Feeling: hurtin


Listening to: crickets chirping