Friday, June 01, 2007

Spineshank -- "New Disease"

Now I can take this, everything I know
Realize that I'm nothing I wanted to be
I can never change anything I've done
Because it's the only this I have left

Blame myself again for what I didn't do
Never even knew it was coming from me
It changed the way I felt, the worst is yet to come
Because I have gone too far now

Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

Is this all worth what this has done to me
Watered down my senses and turned them on me

Fuck morality and everything I know
If I didn't hate this than I couldn't cope
Impersonate myself for what I used to be
Denial is all that's left now

Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
This meant so much to me

Doubt
Did I ever want this?
It's all I could've been, it's all I would've been
Doubt
Did I ever want this?
It's all I've ever been, it's all I'll ever be

Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
This meant so much to me

Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

2 comments:

  1. geez, gal... it looks like you've got some major stress going on.
    I know how it is to feel alone when life is overwhelming you. Don't spend your time looking back and regretting. Focus on what you need for today... put all your strength in being well today... mentally and physically.
    Know you have someone here who is thinking of you and believing in your strength. *hugs*

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  2. Thanks, I'm trying really hard to live day by day and concentrate on what i can do and not worry about what *can't* be done at the moment.

    *huggles back*

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