but i don't mean to be.
maybe i was harping on drinking because i look back at my past and see how much i use to drink all the time and it makes me sick?
or maybe its the fact that i can't drink without wanting to step outside and light one up.
or maybe i'm sick of the fact that i'm a light weight now.
maybe its because i've seen so many lives ruined because of drugs and alchohol?
could be that i'm afraid of becoming an alkie. because seriously, once i get started --i can't stop. and i'm so light weight right now that i'm passin out at 7pm. and if i start later because of that --i don't want to drink because i'm bored already and it does nothing but give me heartburn and a headache.
so to all my friends out there: i'm sorry! your more than welcome to come to my house and get your booze on and i'll be your designated crashing place. --or i'll drive you home and get you in the AM so you can have your car back.
so i'll make ya'll a deal! you want me to get drunk with you? or drink a bit? give me 24 hours notice so i can make sure i have NO vicodin in the system.
im sorry! don't hate me :-( it's just not fun being the only sober person in a room/bar filled with drunk people...
“...So do we pass the ghosts that haunt us later in our lives; they sit undramatically by the roadside like poor beggars, and we see them only from the corners of our eyes, if we see them at all. The idea that they have been waiting there for us rarely if ever crosses our minds. Yet they do wait, and when we have passed, they gather up their bundles of memory and fall in behind, treading in our footsteps and catching up, little by little.”--Stephen King
4-30-11 = Best Day of My Life
We all can be assholes at times...especially in the morning for me=)
ReplyDeleteI drink, but rarely and usually it's just one or two...after that I'm done. I got all or I should say the majority of my partying done in college. It's just not fun waking up after a night of getting hammered.