Finally, the weekend is over

Its been one of 'those' weekends where nothing really goes wrong, but nothing goes right either. Lost in the middle somewhere.

I think that Crystal is avoiding me and I'm not exactly sure as to why. I woke up this afternoon as they were walking out of the house and I KNOW she could hear me, but she kept on walking to thier SUV and got in. I think she's upset that I didn't get home until after 9am on Saturday morning and didn't get up until I had to get ready for work. Even if I tried to explain to her WHY I didn't get home until then, she wouldn't understand. And I think that she thinks it was really late (just before dawn) when I got home this morning, when it wasn't. I got home around 130 am. An hour after I got off work.

Thursday was the usual play and sing, song and dance. Hung out with the boys for a while at CR and then came home. Actually came home early and didn't close them down. Was sitting with some of the 'usual crowd' (there is this one boy that I wouldn't mind going on a date with but I doubt he knows I exist --wait I know he knows I exist just not in 'that way') and somehow it ended up one of the guys being dared to kiss me. I don't really exactly remember how the whole thing started and he did. A nice quick polite "i was dared to do this" kiss and it was kinda awkward cuz I've never thought of him that way before (and he really isn't 'my type'). And the really weird thing is, before they left (as they were getting ready to leave) HE KISSED ME AGAIN altho it wasn't that awkward "i was dared" kind this time he actually lingered a moment or 2 and respectfully didn't try to put his tongue in my mouth and held the sides of my face. Then with not a care in the world he walks away and shouts over his shoulder "see next week babe". I was sitting there watching him walk away, totally floored and flabberghasted.

Friday on the other hand was a different story: I get off work at the spa and went to the mobile to grab me some smokes. Without thinking I just went back the way I came and pulled in CR. Something told me I needed to be there. Sure enough when I got there Bama was there but her bf wasn't with her. They were fighting. She had an affair on her husband and is now living with the guy she was having the affair with.

When I walked in the bar her bf isn't there and she's sitting where we all usually hangout. There is a guy and he's trying to hold her hand and snuggle on her and she's politely telling him "no". I walk up to her and she gives me the most grateful look and then we're off to the bathroom where she cries for about 30 minutes about how she made a mistake she wants her husband back, etc. But she's all confused. I let her vent and I'm there for her.

We go back to the bar and the guy still wont leave her alone so we tab out and get ready to leave. 5 seconds after walking out the door she realizes she doesn't have her cell phone. I'm calling it and no one is answering and we're looking for it. Can't find it nowhere. So we leave and go to her bf's pad, wake him up they make up and we end up going to a place called Nickies (or something like that) in another city. It was a good 30 min drive. Good thing its a 4oclock bar, lol.

On our way to this other bar my phone starts ringing and its from Bama's phone. Thinking that the bartender at CR found the phone we answer it. Its that jerk. He stole her cell phone while we were in the bathroom. Starting out nicely we ask him to please give the people at CR the phone (we've never met this guy before) and he wont do it. Says he wont give her back her phone until SHE is with HIM and all this bull shit.

Finally, long story short we're at Nickies and he's still harassing and I just turn off my cell phone. He's left alot of messages during our time there and they are not pretty.

While we're here I met some really cool people I'd like to hangout with again. Apperantly this is "bama's place" like CR is my place. One of her friends since HighSchool decides he's going to "KISS" me good bye (apperantly according to her, he 'likes' me). So that's twice (3 times if you count the 1st dared kiss) in 2 days that i've been kissed by 2 men I never expected it from.

On our way home I turn on my phone again, its after 4am and I figure if Crystal gets up she'll probly call wanting to know where I'm at. (Which, by the way, she never once called to check in on me --which is totally unusual if I'm not home when she's up)

We get back to Bama and her bf's place and I crash on the couch. I'm too tired to drive even the 2 blocks from her place to mine. Its about 930am or so when I wake up. Leave and come home. Go back to bed. My phone rings about 1ish and its that guy from his cell this time. He's sober now. Says he doesn't remember anything, anything at all. But says that I should go get Bama and take her to meet him at this place. I told him "No, I'll meet you there without her and you give me her cell and its all even stephens".

So after all this bullshit I finally get her cell phone back. I have no time for another quick nap and go to work. She comes to the spa and picks up her phone from me and so very thankful I got it back for her.

Its snowing and sleeting and really really yucky outside. I'm 30 mins late gettin off work because of this bitch of a guest on top of spending 20 minutes digging my truck outa the parking lot. If I didn't have 4wheel drive I never would have made it OUT of the parking lot or even home the roads where so bad.

Again, I had that feeling to stop by CR.

I drive up and its a ghost town in the parking lot. Walk in and thier already closing up. But one of my friends is there and we have a beer together. I offer to buy him a shot (he's always buying me a shot) and he ends up paying for them himself (after me arguing with him) again. I'm there all of 15 minutes maybe 20 and I'm on my way home again. Nothing special happened. Just wish he would have asked me back to his place. He's kissed me once (when we first met). I don't know if it was because we were both smashed or what. But it was nice and I wouldn't mind it again. We're always sitting together (most nights) and hanging out. He's always telling jokes and we just have a great time. He's a really great guy and I love having him as a friend. But the sexual, oh my god he is too hot and sometimes I just wanna throw him down on the ground and have my way with him! lol I love it when I walk in the bar and he throws his arms around me and says as loud as he can "Hey Gorgeous, Miss Me?" and gives me a good ole wet smacker on my cheek. One of these days I'll try and get sly or something and turn my head and make him KISS me.

So, I ended up getting home about 130ish. An hour after my normal time to get home. My truck was spotless this morning when I got up to go back to work. Apperantly it decided to stop snowing after I arrived home. So, perfect scenerio for her to think that I had another "out past dawn" night.

Like it should even matter right? I'm over 21. I was safe and careful. Got Bama out of a nasty situation. I'd hate to think of what would have happened if I hadn't shown up. I hope she would have been smart to ask someone to walk her out, if he would even have let her out of his site that long. It was just a bad bad night because of the jerk off. But after we left CR and despite his harassment it was a pretty good night.

And now here I am. I am so tired but so wired. I hate working a diff shift every day on the weekends. This is total bull shit.

I hope that I can get a new position at the spa tho. One of the girls is quitting and I'm hoping maybe I can wiggle my way into her position. She's just a spa attendant aka: Checks clients in and out, cleans up the locker rooms, clients pay her (she's a cashier). I know that it means working more hours which means more $$$ for me. And hopefully it means that it can be finagled around easier if I need a fri or sat off because of the band if I get this opportunity with them. I know right now that I'll HAVE to have fri nights off. That's one of the practice nights. And I would love to keep Thurs nights off just for the hell of it on Karaoke night. We'll just have to see how things go. I don't think they'll let me do it anyways, one of the bosses there I don't think likes me very much and that would make her my direct boss instead of 'indirect'.

I've totally put myself in a rock and a hard place. I have a job that requires I work friday nights and I'm hoping that after next week my friday nights are taken up with BWS. Really did it this time, can't really afford to quit what's making my car payments and stuff. Well, I'm sure if I had to, I could make myself beable to survive on just the Firm's income. Definatly wouldn't beable to 'play' as much as I have been. And affording gas to get back and forth would become hell. Especially when you add to it going to the practice locations for the band.

SHIT! I MUST FINISH DISTRIBUTION LIST. I could quit the spa all together if that project/venture works the way we want it to. I'll do that tomorrow. Right now, I need sleep. And I need sleep badly.