Death

I wrote this a few days before my 17th birthday. I was messed up in the head on drugs and other stuff. My reality merged with a friend of mines reality during a 'stone fest' and I became her... Just a few weeks shy of a miscarriage due to drug and alchohol abuse. She killed herself, she never touched Heroine and after her miscarriage she did just that, she OD'd on it on purpose.

I don't know why I want to share this, but I want to share this poem with you all that I wrote 10 years ago. Maybe I'm hoping a certain person will read this and it might beable to help her get her life back on track.

"DEATH"
i'm lost
and feel out of touch
with everything
that means so much
i have this love
so i have no life
i'm on a rollercoaster
going nowhere
but to disaster
i drink all the time
i smoke
not just cigarettes
also dope
i get high
every chance i can
my life as a junkie
i can never win

i've lost my baby
my baby boy
all cuz of
my fav toy
and i can never admit
my life wont cease
with this burden in my heart
i've caused the death
of someone i love
all because of
mary jane with crystal meth

if i quit
ill die too
go crazy without the fuse

i know how
to end it all
all i have to do
is make a call
to the dealer
an overdose
on what i need most

my life is
one giant craving
and to cease the pain...
take on final hit
stick in the needle
plunge into deadlier sins
crave...

Blaez, 6*97