How badly do I want a new car?

Or a used one even... Not bad enough to make myself so damn tight I couldn't breathe without lube.

Unfortunatly that is what would have happened if I had gotten this car today. Got approved for a loan, etc. Just borrow $1k from my roomate's dad, blah blah. With payments being around $300 amonth for the car itself, $250 to pay him back a month. That's $550 a month for a damn car. No thankyou. I'll stick with my original plan and just buy one out right with my tax money or close to it. Then, if I do get a 'new' used one its MY money going down and I don't have to pay someone back for the down payment.

Ugh. Finances SUCK!

This week is the semi-finals. I'm nervous. I am so nervous.

The owners & management team are suppose to have been discussing me at TheFirm. To see if they want to keep me or not. #2 reason as to why I'm not buying the car yet. I don't wanna put myself in deep trouble financially. I'll buy a car when I know I'll have a job longer than next week. (Besides the part time gig on the weekends). Ah, and did I mention that my McDreamy is gone? Yea, he got terminated earlier this week. That was a bummer. He said he loved working with me and cheering for the packers with me. That was awesome. Too bad I'll never see him again. He was a pretty awesome dude.

Urn update on Mysterious.. Still havn't found one yet. Drake is still in perfect health. Albiet a lot more demanding of my attention and being a royal pain in the ass. And no, I havn't sent Hephaestus any of her ashes. I don't think I will now. He could atleast e-mail or something and thank me for thinking of him. But no, he hasn't so what the fuck ever. Just goes to prove he didn't care about her or me and he was just using her to hurt me.

I have been talking with someone about starting a band with them. I'm hoping, crossing my fingers this works out well. They have alot of material already, have been in a band before and said they can help teach me with the guitar and stuff. It's a total necessary if I'm gonna sing, ya know? I think I should know how to play SOMETHING.

Alright well, I havn't ate anything yet and I don't think I'm going to. Not hungry but I am gonna go smoke a cig and crash. Its getting late and we have to be up extra early tomorrow morning because of the monthly staff meeting.

Love me!

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Feeling: I'm alive, does that count as a mood?


Listening to: Korn