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A few changes. I've been tweeking this thing a little bit today while doing laundry. Been meaning to for sometime now. Cleaned out most of the dead links, hopefully all of them and updated areas accordingly.

Other than that. Not alot going on. TheFirm will be making thier decision soon on whether to hire me or let me go. I'm crossing my fingers they hire me. I really enjoy working there. And I've come to grow fond of many of the people that I work with. Some, I would call my friends. And no, its not because of McDreamy that I want to stay working there, altho that could be an added bonus.

Things are going as they will at the time. I've still not found an urn for Mysterious. Its starting to grate on my nerves, but I know that eventually I will find the one for her.

I need to ship off Hephaestus's adoption papers. I'll get around to it eventually, still deciding on whether or not to send him some of her ashes. So many people have made me 2nd guess that initial decision to do so. Maybe they are right.

I've not gotten a "Thankyou" or anything for thinking of him when she died. So, that will probly be my final deciding factor. Why do something for someone who is not going to appreciate it? Its not like he ever appreciated me anyways. More and more I feel like I was his Maid or Slave than a Wife. *sigh* Its sad to look back on your life and feel that way.

Which, I guess that's why I'm having such a hard time finding someone. I don't want to repeat the same mistakes that I made in the past. I seem to run screaming from those that want to have a relationship with me. It's frighting, to give yourself to someone that way. To give your heart to them and pray that they wont break it. Hopeing that they will cherish it with everything and give you thier heart in turn, freely.

Ok, well, I must really be going. Put away laundry and get ready to deal with the Hockey Tournament guests at TheSpa.

Too bad its Teen and Pre-Teen that's playing and not people who are closer to my age. As much as I love kids, they can be a pain sometimes.

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Feeling: I'm here, I think


Listening to: Evanescence's New Album "Open Door"