My Hair is a hit...

But I'm not such a fabulous deal. They started putting up all these "new years specials" at the resort/spa this week. Its just reminding me more and more I'm getting closer and closer to the big 3-0. As of June of '07 it'll be 3 years. And it depresses me. I've pictured myself so much further along than what I am at my age. Maybe I want too much, crave too much, demand too much. Shouldn't I be satisfied with what I have? But I'm not. I want so much more.

There is an emptiness in my heart. A hollow spot that's in my soul. And I can't seem to find anything that fills it.

I love to sing. Making a career out of singing, that would be a huge step in filling what's missing inside of me. I don't have to be famous, I just want to be heard. And I want it all.

*sigh* Dream Guy = someone who can sing with me, turn my words into music, plays the guitar and is in utter and complete love with me.

What is it about the guitar? It stirrs something in my soul. I know my dream man is real. Waiting for him to finally come into my life is the hard part.

JC plays bass guitar, but its nothing like lead guitar. I guess thats why I'm so into Hard Rock. They lead guitars so, I don't know, moving to me. And you have bands like Hinder, Drowning Pool, Godsmack, Disturbed, Faktion...The lead guitar combined with the Lead Male vocals just stirrs me into unimaginable places.

Where is my version of Disturbed's lead singer?

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Feeling: lonely


Listening to: Evanescence's "Fallen" album.