Gotta love boring

Had an absolutely nothing went on, nothing happened, boring day! *yay*... why should I be happy about ThAT?! I have no idea.

But I am.

Tonight we're suppose to go out for dinner at Tree Guys. Its a really awesome place. I miss the hell out of it.... So lets reminisce a little, shall we?

When I first met Crystal, first time IRL, when I came up for Yule in '99... That's where we went all the time. Most of the time we went there for Lunch. At that point in time she worked for her Father in the Family Business and it was literally just a hop skip and jump away from the office. After work, we'd go and have drinks at the bar. She was with another man at that time. I thought he was cool, but he'd go off on these drunken tyrants. I don't know... He was a nice guy when he was sober.

Anyways, he use to live in the loft above the bar with his guy pals. Thier is one in particular that I miss so much. He's since passed away. I have a pic of me and him, I'll scan it in and post it. Everyone said I could pass as his daughter. To the point where they'd tease him and said he had snuck off to Arkansas and sewed some wild seeds, at that time about 20 years ago. It was great. I miss the atmosphere of what use to be. But, I'm so thankful for what we have now.

Crystal has since Divorced the Drunken Tyrant and married Tazzie. Who, I love to pieces. Absolutely a great friend. He have an awesome time together, the 3 of us. They are so cute together. He's perfect for her and she him, altho they are quite the opposit on alot of stuff. But who said Opposits attract? In this case, it totally does.

Now, instead of Tree Guys we hang out at the V together. Its a nice atmosphere as well. And I'm starting to get out on my own.. Leave Crystal's "nest" so to speak and fly on my own. I have a joint I like to hang out now, its Cross Roads. I'm starting to know the people there, and its fun. Thier 'real'. As at the Shadow, thier 'fake'. I liked it at first. But, I just don't really like it at all over there anymore. I got tired of it so fast.

At cross roads the staff is so fun. They horse around and play with ya. They get up and sing Karaoke with us and its encouraged from thier Managers/Owners. While Shadow is nice, I prefer my Roads.

This is Matchbox 20 "Busted"
don't know why, but it reminds me of my past when I hear it... Its gotta be that beat or something, you'd have to hear it. Its awesome anyways.

I forget when words were only words
She knows the party makes me nervous
In this stage we can't get hurt
Don't try to understand me

We're too cool to be alone
But, not too crazy to get busted

I found out one life ain't enough
I need another soul to feed on
I'm the flame I can't get burnt
I'm wholly understated

I found silence in this space
An on and off again attraction
I need such amazing grace
Heaven sweep me away

[chorus]

Love don't change, don't come around here
Don't wear my heart on your sleeve
Like a high school letter
Don't strain, cuz nothing ever comes from it
And the people we've become, well
They've never been the people who we are

I strap on one horse and prayed for luck
I dug another hole to bleed
I know exactly how this works
I need a new feel dirty

I don't need you crowding up my space
I just want to get inside you
You can't blame the heart you save
Giving something awa

[chorus]

I dreamed that the world was crumbling down
We sat on my back porch and watched it
I dreamed that the buildings all fell down
We sat on my back porch and watched it
In my head I heard the sound
Like fifteen strangers dancing

But oh how I want you to know me
Oh how I want you to know me
Oh how I wish I was somebody else, baby
Oh how I wish you could own me

[chorus]

It seems I have a crush on someone... I don't know if they have a crush on me or not. I hope they do, but I hope they don't. They told me lastnight that I was the only person that makes them feel good... I don't know what to think about that. Would so love to just wrap my arms around him and hold him close and give him all of me.

When I sing this song Thursday, this song will be for MyCrush...
EVANESCENCE "Bring Me To Life" (feat. Paul McCoy)

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)