So, lastnight I decided to head out to CrossRoads and do a lil spying on the competition and let them see what thier up against. I got practically standing ovations everytime. Lots of cheering. It was great. Nailed every song perfectly.
This to Jean... would you check out my poetry and let me know what you think, that is if you havn't already. And ofcourse anyone else that wants to as well.. Some of you, mainly Coolio, might get a large blast from the past reading that stuff. Seeing as how we were living together and before that practically living together when most of that was wrote and I do believe I shared with you alot. Warning, alot of it is mushy lovey dovey shit from my ex husband, wrote about him. And well, you can tell we weren't happy and he seemed to always be breaking my heart over and over again.
I love Jean's writing. She's great.
Had a pretty interesting day today. Learning procedures and filing and stuff at work. Crystal is an awesome person to have for a boss. It brought back alot of wonderful memories of when we worked together at her dad's company. SO happy to be back up here.
Someone, who wanted to remain anonymous, told me "If you can't find what you are looking for,stop looking. When you stop looking,you usually find it."
How do I stop looking for something I don't know what I'm lookin for? I dont know what I'm looking for or what I want. Stagnant.
Talking to HockeyGuy again. Why can't I get this dude out of my mind? My phone rings and I cringe that its not his ringtone. I'm obsessing. God I need to stop obsessing. Its not really obsessing. I just like him ALOT.
And, ofcourse, I had a dream about someone that I shouldn't have been dreaming about. I feel so guilty. He's got a wife and a kid on the way. We were talking the other day that brought up some memories... Yea. Gonna have to stop those memories from resurfacing again. Can't have that happening. Bad enough thier is already 1 guy HERE that I like, but he's married (yes, We're staying JUST friends -I doubt he has aclue I like him- wait, he does lol but I didn't know he was married when I told him as much) and I've never had a relationship with them. I don't need a past romance comming back to haunt fantasies. thats just bad news all around. Thier is a reason thier past, #1 and #2, he's married. UGH. ANd I know he reads this, stop blushing. I can see you blushing. Don't worry babe, I'm blushing too.
Ok, well...Tazzie and Crystal should be calling anytime now for me to meet them at the V. So, I'll be there having a few drinks to kick off the weekend.
I plan on working this weekend. Shit I can do at home and in the comfort of my Jammies. I dont plan on doing much. Crossing my fingers I can meet HockeyGuy somewhere... Yea, I'm thinking of him already again. I can't help it. He's so awesome.
went to your poetry site..... you have some very heartfelt thoughts there. I believe that if you write
ReplyDeletewith sincerity, from the heart...as you have done...it will be good. Writing is an expression of ourselves...a reflection, if you will...it helps us learn about ourselves as well as others... and I believe all learning is good... then it is up to each of us to decide how to use the knowledge we have gained. Keep writing for yourself. I added e mail to my profile, if you need to drop a line.
Yeah I remember some of that. Some OLD memories. Us comparing our poetry and feelings back then. Seems forever ago. Yeah we can run be we cant hide from our own feelings. They are like bad body odor following us where ever we go.
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