Can't sleep -- go figure!

Its just one of those nights/mornings...Hephaestus's got my head thinking with his last post in his journal... I'm not one to share my 'toys' and, I do think of him as my toy... That sounds really bad when you say it outloud... See, he can be sharing all he wants, like with me, I could go have a boyfriend or girlfriend and do whatever I want with them, and he knows I'm comming home to him. He's the one that I love.. Now, not all Gemini's are like this, but I know a few of us who are, we dont like Monotomy, and dont like being bored.. I love my husband, but sometimes thier is this part of me that, well, I want something "different" and its not him (my husband).. its me, I'm just like that. Now, if the tables were turned, would he beable to have a girl/boy friend and then come home to me? NO. Its a ... um, selfish thing. I dont like to "share my toys" with anyone! Now, before you start thinking that I'm out there having sex all the time with diff guys/girls, think again. Its only happened once, and he seems to like to make it seem like more than once. More than once with that PERSON, yes. More than 1 person, NO. I do have a few people, that we "discuss" having relations. It hasn't went anywhere. And probly never will go anywhere. There is more to those situations that I just wont discuss here, mainly because I dont want to, 2ndly because thier Guys and I'm not really interested in guys right now. I wanna chic. And I want more than just a "one night stand" so I'm being really picky and choosy about who I'm "dating". I can't find "the right one" and I think Hephaestus is getting impatient! rofl. Hell, wouldn't you if your wife said "wanna join me for a 3some with another chic" and then said "but, I havn't found her yet..." and its been like oh seems like forever since we first started talking about it! We've messed around a few times with other girls. Never went past a little foreplay. Just didn't "feel right" but ya know...

Anyways, I can't sleep. And rambling on about shit yall probly dont wanna read! (sorry) but, thats my life. I want a girlfriend. I'd love to have a "wife" myself. Someone to move in with us and be a couple with me. Ya, have my cake and eat it too. I don't think I would mind if she were to be married to her own husband either (cuz then she'd not be likely to have her eyes on mine!)... I've actaully had this fantasy about meeting the right woman for me.... We (me, her, my hubby and her hubby) all move in together in this huge house. The men go out and work and come home to us. During the day we take care of the children, take care of the house... and have our "interludes" in between. We'd share everything 50/50 (bills, not husbands) and it'd be great. Me and her could fullfil our fantasies together, and even have 4somes with the hubbies. (Each pleasing thier respective wives ofcourse!)

Thing is, Hephaestus doesn't mind the "jelousy". He's once or twice said that its cute and one of the things he loves about me.. Cuz its really not jelousy. Its that I know what I want and what I dont want and I dont want my husband being with anybody else but me. And before you go on a tyrant at me about being with someone else that isn't my husband, my husband was THERE! He actively participated. Its not like we were doing it behind his bad. Hephaestus enjoyed as much, if not more, than we did. He actually seems to be "turned on" by the whole ordeal. Which is great :) I dont have to change and he doesn't either. Perfect match, right??

So, if your a single bi/lesbian woman or a married bi woman, and you live around where I do, might be interested? Drop me a line for some coffee or something. I always want to be friends first and foremost. I'm not ready to "jump into bed with strangers". Mine is a mental stimulation as well as a physical one.

Well, 2 more hours or so and Hephaestus will be getting up. Gonna find whats on the boob tube while I battle the insomnia.