Shit Shit Shit and More Shit Shit.

Aunt Flow stopped by for her visit yesterday. And I am miserable. I dont have the money to get a refill on my chlomid. This would be the last month I'd beable to take it because of the insurance change. And now I can't even do that.
Speaking of things that I can't even do...try yule presents for my family. I get phone calls everyday with people (our family) saying "oh how they got Hephaestus this...and got you that....and blah blah and how this is going to be the best christmas ever". I just want to scream into the phone BULLSHIT. Absolute bullshit.

Yes, you could say that its partly my fault because I wasn't prepaired. How can you be prepaired when every penny gets put into bills?? My need to make sure I pay my bills has left me miserable for the holidays. And staley, my gods they are a joke now. Atleast during the dead season last year Hephaestus was getting atleast 20 hours a week. This year, nothing. Not one iota....

Until today. They actually called him up and he has atleast three (3) eight (8) hours days this week. That will be just in time to pay the car insurance....Oh, I'm sorry. I was wrong, insurance is due on the 28th and he wont get paid this money until the 31st.

Oh gods what am I going to do? The money my friend Andy loaned me helped a little. And I thought we would be ok after H’sMom saying she'd help us with the rent. And now she's saying that she doesn't even think she'll beable to help with that...I wanna curl up and die.