Hmm, well I don't know where to start. But he finally got ahold of me (obviously) and we've been talking. He has a chance to make this up to me. There is no time frame, there is not unlimited time either. I understand that things happen. I've been the victim of circumstance myself.
Thankfully, no he's not married. As some have suggested that he's married and got caught. He's not married *woohoo*
Just, damnit everything comming down at once? yea, i've had those moments. Where I wanted to run away and made plans to and wasn't going to tell anyone. I actually went through with it. Ran off to my daddy then off to here in Chicago.
There are still those in arkansas who have no idea what happened to me except that one second i had my own house and Suga was stayin with me and then I was gone. That's how it needs to stay. For them. those that don't know don't need to know.
But, in Taranis' case I'm someone who should have been clued into something. I would have understood. He's thankfully come to his senses and we're talking again. Maybe a little more 'seriously' than we should probly be, especially with me putting down the "we're starting over from the beginning" speech I laid on him...
*sigh* i can't help it. He's got me, and he's got me good. Better not break me or i'll break him. and he knows it. I told him I don't know how many times I'd hurt him.
yea, i'm a mean ass bitch (not) lol. Thankfully I'm don't feel like I'm forcing him to stay with me because he could very well walk away from me at anytime and never look back, but he chose not to go that route and work things out with me.
Which is step one in rebuilding our relationship.
“...So do we pass the ghosts that haunt us later in our lives; they sit undramatically by the roadside like poor beggars, and we see them only from the corners of our eyes, if we see them at all. The idea that they have been waiting there for us rarely if ever crosses our minds. Yet they do wait, and when we have passed, they gather up their bundles of memory and fall in behind, treading in our footsteps and catching up, little by little.”--Stephen King
4-30-11 = Best Day of My Life
Probably the most important part of the relationship is how you work out problems and differences.
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So, you have to have a workable method to acknowledge your own screw ups and accept/forgive/deal with the other's.
All relationships are hard. Anyone who tells you different is lying or delusional.
krm
yes i see this whole thing as a learning experience for both of us, to see how we deal with stress and you know, through this whole ordeal we didn't fight. we had our talk, discussion, i was more angry that him i'm sure, but it all stayed civil and calm. i'm really proud of us.
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