the rest of the story

I wonder if maybe this is too much to share in public??
for the non-sexual details go here

So, after we got done having sex (this is the conversation I omitted in the public journal) he brings up the whole "give me head" issue. AGAIN! We've had this conversation I don't know how many times that I'm just not comfortable going to that step yet.

He didn't or doesn't understand how I can stay the night with him --in his words-- "make love" to him (I called it just sex because I didn't and DONT know my feelings for him to be love, yet --which pissed him off even more) so, he went on a rampage and tried to make me feel like shit that because he's went down on me "against my wishes but I was tired of arguing with him about it" I should give him "Courtesy" head. Fucking asshole.

Absolutely no concern or care for my emotions that I'm not ready yet to go to that step of a sexual relationship with him.

And this was ofcourse the straw that broke the camel's back. He acted like he was so "not being satisfied" by intercourse alone. When he can't even hold it! 10-15 mins (sometimes as little as 5mins) and he's gotten off and I'm left just getting started and just getting into it. Granted its good and he's a "good fit", but still. Don't cum so damn soon! I've tried to help slow him down and take it easy but he wouldn't let me do anything I tried, I fucking tried!

So, anyways I just had to get this out of my system.

OH! and we got high about a week ago. He tried to have ANAL sex with me after I've already made it plain and clear that I don't do anal sex. And he's all "you didn't mind having my finger up your ass" --well, no that's a turn on actually to have the guy penetrating my ass with his finger while fucking me from behind. However, its not a turn on to have your ass ripped to shreds by something thats huge and doesn't belong in there!

And he swears and claims that he doesn't do anal, but he's tried to do anal with me. I'd say "no,I told you no I don't do that" and he's like "ooops, sorry it slipped" bullshit. He was hoping I was either Drunk enough or stoned enough to not care.

So, there all you priveledged people know the main reason as to why me and Paisley are not together anymore.