its a start...

while my food choices might not be the greatest, i'd rather eat quick junk food than cook a meal, lol... i am doing better with the excersize. been taking the stairs instead of the elevator at work and during lunch i'm walking around the parking lot as well as my smoke breaks. a few baby steps at a time. within a few weeks i hope to be going walking every other day when i get home. might be next summer by the time i get my shit together and have that bombshell body back, but damnit i'll be celebrating my 28th birthday in a sexy manner, then!

crystal is trying to talk me into letting her measure me and keep track of my measurements (waist, hips, etc) ontop of the scale weight as well. i might cave in and do that. what i wish is that i could do situps/crunches to help get rid of this belly. that's really the only thing i'm dissapointed in. there has got to be something so that i'm not risking injury to my back. yall got any ideas?

she's loaned me one of her pedometer (measures how many steps you take a day) things. i'm not sure exactly what that is suppose to do for me? i know that in general i do get up and walk around alot at work for just filing and stuff, who knows.

the weather here has finally been very beautiful. in the mid/upper 60s and low 70s. its a blessing, really it is. i was getting to the point i was gonna die of the cold i was so sick of it.

one of the boss's sons at work has my desktop. he said the only thing we'll probly beable to do is salvage the files off the hardrive. crystal is going to talk to our head boss and see if they'll let me buy one of thier old computers they can't use anymore (not fast enough/too old for CAD software, etc) and we'll have a desktop again *yay*. i know that i use this laptop far more than what your suppose to. i've always been told that using a laptop alot will cause it to "fall apart" faster. i dont know how true that is, but i do like being able to lounge on my bed like i am right now and relax while on the computer. but i also know that for graphic design and faster processing i need another desktop.

i got one of my "goals" set in motion: the losing weight and i've started another goal in motion today. i've contacted the College of DuPage about starting some night classes. i really want to go into criminal psychology or something along those lines. i dont want to work in an office the rest of my life doing book keeping and accounting, etc etc. i wanna do something that will help people. something that i can feel proud about. i'm not exactly sure what field i'll be going into or studying but i will say this: its going to be (have to be) a combination of criminal justice, medical and psychology. that shit just turns me on!

i've kinda put the whole singing thing on the back burner. crystal and i was talking and she use to do photography and art for a living. one of her greatest passions in life and she burnt herself out on it. i dont want to do that. and i can see myself burning out on the singing already because i dont have the drive and ambition to go out and sing at Crossroads like I use to. it stops being fun and feels like work and i dont want to associate something fun with having to work. altho it'd be nice to be a rockstar and get a little into acting. maybe meet angelina jolie and brad pitt! lol. (she is so hot)

ok, its late and i've rambled enough.