I'm really sorry about that previous post. I doubt the person I was speaking of even reads this damn thing. My dreams are haunted by him and I can't seem to get him off my mind. Constantly all the time and its scaring me. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm waking up in the middle of the night with a scream caught in my throat because of the content of my dreams.
On another note, things seem to be going well with Paisley. Which is a little scary in itself. We had dinner sunday evening with Crstyal & Tazzie. We had ham, garlic mashed potatoes (which paisley made), green bean casserole (that I made). It was delicious! Oh so good! And we all watched the movie "Deep Impact" together. Had a really nice time.
Too good of a time, I think. Fri & Sat I worked at the spa, sat night I ended up staying over with Paisley. It was, ya know, a little too easy to drive to his place, go to bed, wake up and have breakfast together then come over here, visit a bit and then leave together.
A little too easy and a little too comfortable. And spooky. So ofcourse when I got home lastnight I cried and cried on Crystal's shoulder. Told her I wanted to break it off with Paisley. I think she thinks I'm insane. But I know that I'm not ready for this, or I think I'm not ready. Now that I'm actually being tested in this situation and its not just a "few dates, no we're not compatible, staying friends or never speaking again" situation.
I'm fucked up in da head, my man!
Crystal says to give it time. that I'm nervous and anxious and have every right to be after what Iv'e been through. So, I'll chill.
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