Tuesday, February 20, 2007

here's the deal

i can see why no one would want me in thier band. i'm not really 'band material' i guess.

Here's why:
-- I havn't played an instrument EVER in my life except for about 10 years ago my friend J.Y. was teaching me to play the guitar for about 2 months about of the 4 we were dating (he was right before Hephaestus).

-- I havn't read music since high school choir and that was, god ages ago now. Another 10 years past.

But I can write, I'm a writer and I'm sure if I had to I could put a 'tune' together in my head for a song or two of mine. and I can sing. I KNOW I can sing. I was BORN to be a singer. But who wants a worthless singer like me? I want this, I need this I crave this. Just not so sure if my 'lyrics' would ever be something the masses or anyone other than myself would want to hear.

And I would totally understand if they turned me down for someone else who could do all of the above and more.

I checked out thier former Vocalist's page. She plays the guitar and she's a decent singer. Not the best I've ever heard, but pretty decent.

So, my odds on getting something together with any band at this point in time are pretty slim to none. I really really really need to get off my ass, buy me a guitar and sign up for lessons with Ronnie.

What was I thinking?! But I'm still going to go and give it my all. If they like my sound and we 'click' then I'm sure something will be worked out.

Thinking there goes my trip to Arkansas next month? Which is more important --Buying a guitar and starting lessons with the extra cash or seeing my family & grabbing more of my shit outa storage.

on another note, I was writing a few things today, got 2 'lyrics/poems/songs' whatever you wanna call them in progress. Here is a taste of one of them....

In The Dark

running in the dark
her breath is taken
screaming in the dark
her body shaking
crying in the dark
clawing thru fiery air
crouching in the dark
hiding amidst the shadows scared
lying in the dark
reaching out to grab her
searching in the dark
he cannot find her
standing in the dark
he throws her against a wall
raping her in the dark
she begins to fall
beating her in the dark
reality stretching
loving him in the dark
her mind is breaking
lying in the dark
he put is hand in mine
strolling through the dark

Blaez
2/20/07

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