Altho I'm not sure what "it" is, I have appeared to have done "it" very well. Why you ask? Because my fucking back is paining me beyond ALMOST anything I've ever felt. I say almost because its not as bad as when I first herniated L4 & L5 of my back. Now that was a kicker. Ambulances down dirt roads when you can barely breath wihtout pain, giving a shot of adreneline because you were going into shock. Being on morphine for god knows how long. (about 8 hours i think give or take) being pumped up with muscle relaxers so I could relax and rest and it still not happening. Having to go to the bathroom and refusing a catheter making some Orderlys and EMTs pick me up from bed and put me on a bedside toilete. Screaming like someone pushing through the worse labor ever and no drugs when I relax enough to finally go after holding it for well over 3 or 4 hours (that tense with the pain, I guess. Don't ask me to do that now when I have to go it'd never happen)
Its not that intense. Atleast not yet. I can only imagine that it could if I did something stupid again while in this pain. I'm not sure what I did to aggravate it. I don't want to know. But it had to have been something seriously stupid because the scar line where my muscle is torn on the lower-mid left side is burning and L4 & L5 are wrecking havoc.
~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~Feeling:
In pain
Listening to: 'Broken' by Seether & Amy Lee (Evanescence)
But still, snow pretty!
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