I think I held up rather well, despite my breakdown at the end of the evening. I was fine, happy went out with Tazzie & Crystal to Tazzie's family for the celebration. It was nice, nothing like I'm use to tho. Talked to my family in Arkansas, was passed around everyone that was there. That was nice.
And then I came home. Watched TV with C&T. Talked to one of my friends on the phone and broke down. I cried and bitched and whined and moaned. Eventually, I fell asleep while he was talking. He is that soothing to me. That's good. I'm happy I have him in my life. Wish he was closer, lives too damn far away for my preference, but I guess we all have to makedo.
But I survived my 1st Turkey Day away from home, away from Family and Officially my 1st Turkey Day as a single, divorced woman. It was hard. It wasn't easy, I wont lie and say it was. Last T-Day was easier because I had my family, lots of family surrounding me so I couldn't/didn't have the chance to think about being a single person and I had tons of friensd surrounding me that wouldn't let me reflect back on my married life.
I think I want too much to the point where I'm never going to be satisfied. I can't be perfect, nothing can be perfect and I have a hard time grasping that.
So what am I thankful for? I'm thankful that my Father raised me, for Family that loves me & wonderful friends.
There's always not being a turkey to be happy about.
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