F*cked up Dream

So I went to bed lastnight not in the best of moods (obviously).

I wake up, no one is home *not unusual* I get on the comp to check my email and msgs (like i always do) none. Ok, so I go around the house picking up dirty dishes from this morning when mom and dad got up. Do the dishes. Take a shower. Start gettin ready for another day of job hunting.....

No one comes home. Its 5pm and no one comes home. I call wal-mart. No one answers. My sis Pebbles didn't stop by. Thats unusual. call her. nothing. call my sister Raquel. nothing. just start dialing random #s. Nothing. THE FUCK.

Daddy's keys are on the table *blink* didn't notice them before. So I get in the truck after tryin daddy's cell. It rings on the intable in the living... This is not cool.

I'm driving through town. No one in sight. No one. A stray piece of paper rolls in front of me on hwy 64/main street.

I just keep going. I'm trying to call Everyone.

I merge onto I-40. Thier are millions of dead bodies piled up on the Interstate.

I awake myself screaming.

Actually wake up. Walk around the house. Everything normal. Phone rings. Telemarketer. Go back to sleep.

Wake up. I'm in a diff house. Thier's smells of bacon and eggs. Cool. I glance at myself in the mirror. (I'm not "skinny" in real life but damnit I looked like I was 8 months preg in my dream). Thinking to myself "Not eating that shit this morning... Gotta get back on my diet" Put my clothes on. Walk into the Kitchen with sock feet. My kitties are rubbin around my legs. I see a man at the stove. He turns around and says "good morning, my mommy-to-be". And it hits me. I can feel the baby kick. I'm pregnant. I fill with sudden joy. My heart is filled with pride. There's a man at the stove making breakfast. Its a Saturday morning. The sunshine is beatiful and bright. Everything looks briliant. Hurts my eyes everything is so wonderous.

We go through our day. Happily married and very much pregnant. We lay down to sleep. I'm cuddled into his arms.

I feel a sharp pain in my abdomen. I'm having contractions.

I wake up crying.

And now you have me sittin at the comp checkin my email. Pebbles is here and no bodies piled on the highway. No baby in my tummy (atleast not yet) and I'm starting to get happier and happier with my life.

I woke up on the right side of the bed this morning :)

Gotta go clean house.