What a fucking week....

As you all know, I've been sick. That sucks so much. Still aint completely over it.

I aint hooking up with dude. Decided we aint compatable. Just because he brushes my hair and can make me melt doesn't mean anything... He's not who I want, I was just letting sexual feelings overrun anything that should be real. And I wasn't looking at anything realistically. (I totally butchered that word)

Anyways, I ran into Ram and he seemed to be pretty upset anyways that the thought even crossed my mind to start seeing this guy.. I respect his feelings and wishes and he knows us both better than we know ourselves. I'll be single for a while it looks like.

Shit's getting deep at work. SoldierBoy just got back from Iraq and they've already sent him off to Louisiana to help out with the hurricane stuff... And tonight our manager fired someone that we all feel was no reason at all. Its not his fault that we congregated around where he was stocking after we got our paychecks. We were shopping and he happens to be a friend of ours and working on the aisle we were shopping on. How rude. I hope he goes to our store manager about it and gets it taken care of.

I'm just so tired of feeling so alone and lonely. Pimpy and I are seriously talking about getting a place together, but I don't wanna put my parents in a tight spot because they depend on my check, too. I guess we'll see how things go. I'm gonna talk to my dad's ex and see about buying Raquel's Dodge Ram. Make payments to them. I know they want cash money upfront and I don't have it, but maybe they'll let me make payments to them. Doesn't hurt in asking.

So anyways, right now things are shitty. I'm sad and depressed and lonely. I need to get Pebbles' phone this week... It should be interesting me and her sharing a plan and stuff, but I don't think its gonna be a big deal. Mom and Dad seem to think its gonnna cause issues between us. Its not, its just a little hard 2 ppl sharing a phone (we're sharing mine right now) but its not that big of a deal because I work at night! lol I don't need it during the day time.

I feel really bad about DevilMan. I wanted him to come down and see me so bad. My family in TN called and said my AuntE was in the hospital and my mom was real sick so he didn't. And I thought he was going to come down Wed but I havn't heard from him since Tues afternoon... If your reading this, I wasn't meaning to blow you off. I really do wanna get together with you, and soon.. I'm sorry I talk about some things that I probably shouldn't when we're on the phone, but I just I dont know. Forgive me?

Well, I'm off here, the house is starting to wake. Laterz peeps.

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Feeling: Frustrated


Listening to: Coffee Maker