Is it so wrong to just want to be loved? I just want to be loved. The guy who I would enjoy being loved by right now... Well, like I said previously it had to end before it even began. Damn circumstances. If I'm single he's not and vice versa. *sigh*

SO, I'm out on the prowl again. I have my eyes on a few guys. One of which just recently broke up with his girlfriend (I don't want to be a rebound altho I guss thats what I'm looking for, my rebound and get it over with). The other is black. He's short and black. lol. Well, he's more or less got his eye on me and I'm just reveling in the attention. I guess we'll see how things go. Ram is going to be out of the picture before too long. Which is a good thing because we can't be together anyways. Thats pathetic, falling for a man that you can't even have. And I can't even consider it falling for him I don't think, more of just lust and him having a sexy hot huge muscular rippling body. LOL. Yap, its lust and my eyes are on him and his muscle shirts and his rippling muscles.

Gave my number out to a "friend's" ex husband. I havn't talked to this chic in so long I don't even know if I could consider her to be a friend anymore. I told him to call. He's hot and we always get along and he seems to be digging the skinnier and more healtheir looking me, so I guess it can't hurt, right? Ya, I've lost somewhere in the vicinity of about 30-40 lbs since June. And I'm working on losing more. Then I'm contemplating becomming a stripper. LOL.

I had an old "friend", I don't even know if I could ever consider this guy being anything other than aquantance, he was a friend of a friend from years back. Anyways, Last I ran into him he said he was seperated from his wife. I ran into him again last night and he said they were back together. *hmmm* and now, he wants to come over and hang out with me. For the life of me I can't remember his name. Which is terrible. I'll figure it out.

I'm so tired of being single already. It doesn't have to be anything serious, just someone to hang out with and make out with or whatever. I don't care. I just need some male companionship and all the men around me are NOT AVAILABLE. Driving me insane. Especially Ram cuz of his rock hard bod. Man he drives me crazy when he takes off his shirt. I could only imagine how he is in bed.

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Feeling: Bouncy


Listening to: Waiting for my phone to ring