Memorial Day

It was quiet. Didn't do much as you can read from previous postings yesterday. I've been on the verge of tears most of the day. Our soldiers overseas. Our soldiers at home. Our Fallen Soldiers who's memories are helped kept alive by today. I'm not a fancy writer. Today saddens me. Everyday that I turn on the news and see more segments about the War saddens me. And I keep thinking how I could be over there right now. I was so close to joining the military with my friend ArmyGirl. And I didn't. She went through with it. I havn't been able to get ahold of her for a long time. Any contact information I had on her is now a dead end. I think one of the reasons I look for Soldier Blogs is to see if I find her. I havn't yet. No one in my home town has seen her or her family. Last I saw her she had a baby Girl. That was, what 5 years ago? She got married to her husband not long after she came home from Boot Camp.

When we were at my little Sister's graduation, there was about 10 people they called out who Joined some form of Military. 5 of which would be going overseas right after boot camp. I can't imagine being a 18 year old KID and going off to war. Its madness, total madness. How can they send our babies off like that?! They are just CHILDREN fresh out of high school.

Last I heard from my Mom ArmyBro said something about him being Deployed (He is my step-brother). Last I had talked to him, he was excited about it. Mom said him and his Fiance are going to be married before he's Deployed. I've had quite a few family members go to fight in Wars and never come back. I know how scared MomI is. He is her youngest boy. My aunt is dying of cancer and she's worrying about her son being overseas soon. I hope her health holds up through all of this.

My little sister, Pebbles, was dating a Marine for a while. I think its because she "thought it was cool" but she dropped him. I can't say that I'm not relieved. He graduated with our Sister Raquel. He's one of them to be going over right after bootcamp. I'd hate for one of my girls to have to go through that experience. (Selfish I know, but when It comes to family, I think we have the right to be).

I have an uncle who is a total Military man. Went and fought in the Gulf War. Now he's a recruiter. He didn't seem the same when he came back. Almost angry all the time. I dont get to see him much. Havn't seen him in forever. Lost contact during his many moves around this country.

I wish all of the Soldiers (American and ALL others) a quick and safe return to thier homes. And the familie's of the Soldiers who have died in this war and other wars, peace and mended hearts.

***Edit 4:50am : I lost my momentum of typing what I had intended to and started bawling like a baby. In all things short. I have many familyand friends that have fought and died in Wars. Currently I have a handful if not more of Soldiers overseas that are close friend and/or family member. Talking about them and the members of our family that is home, makes me weep. I may not support the War or the President. But I support the soldiers in thier decisions to do what they feel they had to do.***