Visit to the Specialist

Well, it went as well as anyone can expect. I didn't have any tests done, just blood work. The doctor believes that time as been waisted and wants to get me into surgery ASAP and he feels that more gyno paps, etc is a waiste of time. I am set up to have surgery on the 23rd of this month (yup, you heard right, the night before christmas eve). They are going to put me under (its an out patient surgery) and cut out/off the first centimeter or so of my cervix (basically where they found the cancer/pre-cancer cells and a little further deeper in) and send it in for further testing to the pathologist. This serves 2 purposes, 1 it can "cure" what I have and/or 2ndly it can tell them if it was spread and if more surgeries are needed. Now, if the test results come back "parameters normal" meaning that no change to slight change has occurred and has not spread beyond what the previous biopsies in June showed, then I will go back to the specialist in 3 months have a biopsy done and go from there on those test results. Now, if those test results are negative (that's a good thing) then I can continue on my journey to having a baby!

If the test results come back "parameters violated" then that means it has spread and more surgeries are/will be required and we will discuss the options of which surgeries are best for me at that time.

My recovery period is about 3 months. They say that my cervix and surrounding areas that are being taken will/should heal back normally. Basically, I'm going to be on the restrictions of a "new mother" who had a hard labor and was torn severely...aka, no sex for 6-8 weeks, pending the test results, up to 3 months. No strenous activity, etc blah.

I'm very hopeful, and altho this Doctor is a family physician (meaning he's my mother-in-law's and grandmother-in-laws, aunts...etc gyno as well) doesn't eleviate the fear of being knocked out while people are doing things to my private areas. I've never liked papsmears, and I've never enjoyed going to the gyno and this is about as bad as it can get I guess.

As some of you know, I have a hystery of being raped, and that doese not help eliviate my fear of being under anethesia and knocked out in this situation.

I would just like to say thank you to everyone who has been supportive of me. And tho I may not tell all of you all the time, I love you all so very much. And yes, I will make sure I keep everyone updated on my treatments and progress.

Love,
Aphrodite, aka blaez