Missing My Love

Well, Hephaestus wont be home until sunday now....but I'm going to make my famous home-made lasagna and cherry pie for him. Seeing as how I dont work on sunday (my only day off) i can spend it with him and make him one of his favorate meals with the whole nine-yards, my infamous Mozzerella Garlic Bread and Salad and the meatiest, chunkiest, tastiest, veggie packed and cheese gallore Lasagna anyone could ever ask for.

I love you my darling teddybear. I miss you so much. I wish you were here. I love you.

He's suppose to be home Saturday night. I can't stand him being on the road like this. I miss him so much and my heart breaks while he's away. I dont know how any of you can stand to be around me when I'm like this.

He wants me to go out and make friends so I'm not moping around all the time. Its just so HARD to want to do anything when he's not around. I dont think he realizes that.

"I miss your body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away, And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today, Cause I love you, whether its wrong or its right, And though I can't be with you tonight, You know my heart is by your side" - taken from "if your not the one, by Daniel somebody....its a new song out, atleast its new to me, but that one part just fits how I feel about him perfectly, as does the rest of the song when we first got together over 5 years ago.

So I miss my husband. And I'm waiting for the Drs to call about my Health Problems, and I want so badly to have a baby for him.

Before he left he was putting his head on my belly and i'd say "what are you doing" and he'd say "i'm listening for a heartbeat"

MY GODS I MISS YOU HEPHAESTUS!